Today was my appointment with the Endocrinologist. Luke and I waited in the waiting room for about 10-15 minutes before they called me to a back room. The nurse went through what seemed like tons of questions because I was new to their office. Eventually, she left and told the doctor that I was ready to see him. After the nurse left, we waited another 15 minutes before the doctor finally came in. He spoke with an accent that was incredibly hard to understand. I had to zone into every syllable he said in order to comprehend what he was trying to tell or ask me.
He asked me some more questions that the nurse prior to him had not asked. So, to make a long story short, he's putting me on Metformin permanently. He said that he could put me on tons of medicines, but none of them would work like excessive exercise and dieting would. So, he said for the next four months, take the Metformin and do AT LEAST 60 minutes of excessive exercise a day. He said that the Metformin should help me balance the hormones out and help me loose weight. Also, he said that since we're trying to get pregnant, he hopes that Dr. M will put me on Clomid because it might help get me pregnant. When he said that, Luke's ears perked up. So, Luke asked him, "what is the percentage (if EVERYTHING levels out and she looses some weight and Dr. M puts her on Clomid) that she will conceive?" The Dr. replied, "with just diet, exercise, and Metformin, she's looking at only 20-30%....if she gets on Clomid too, it may bump it up to 40-50%." With AF being so sporadic, he said it's almost impossible, especially since I'm not ovulatin. My heart sank. 50% AT BEST....That's not even good odds for me getting pregnant if everything happened with its best case scenario.
My dreams of bearing my own child are almost gone. I know it's not the end of the world, but it's a very hard road to travel. We've got some important decisions to make very VERY soon. I just hope that whatever we decide to do, EVERYONE will support us. This journey has been long and exhausting. We prayed for answers, and now we have them. Where we go from here is undecided at the moment, but I just pray that the Lord gives me a peace that could only come from Him to make it through our decision.
Stay tuned folks, this next step will be a doozie!
Alicia Marie
