Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Three years

Three years ago today, when I slipped this puffy white dress over my head, I never imagined that the life I had planned in my mind would not play out how I had always imagined.

I had no comprehension of what it truly meant to say "for better or worse."

I had no idea that one day, I'd have to let go of my two babies that I'd never get the chance to meet, all for reasons I'll never understand this side of heaven. 

That day, on September 19, 2009, I had no idea how many days I would find myself needing to pray but would never have the right words to say, so instead...I cried.

But it's days like today where I'm thankful for a husband that knows when I just need him to hold my hand...

...or to guide me when I feel as though I have lost sight of where our lives are taking us...or when I feel like I can't continue this path we've been put on...

...and he even knows when to leave me alone because I have the "I'm going to kill you" look on my face.

And sure, there even have been days that I just needed my mom to be here and tell me everything will be okay and to wipe away my tears...

 But, through the trials of the last three years, we've laughed and cried...and we've eaten lots of cake!

 And the best part of the last three years has been spending it with the man I love. 

Happy Anniversary, Luke. 

I love you.


  1. Hello dear friend! It has been awhile since I've heard from you. I know you haven't heard from me in awhile either, but I *do* think of you.
    This post is BEAUTIFUL, and you were one gorgeous bride. I never got to wear the white puffy dress, and I always kind of wish I did...
    Happy anniversary to you both! Please post again soon? I have more time to hop on blogger these days. I will email you if you dont! (Yes that's supposed to be a threat, kind of) lol

  2. I was looking for a way to email you, but I didn't find it. I saw your tweets and wanted to let you know I had a boob "thing" that I had to get looked at last year. My doctor was able to get me directly into the Breast Clinic and an ultrasound/mammogram the next day and I knew right away I didn't need a biopsy or anything. It might be different here in Seattle - I think there must be some great breast cancer funding here - but the thought of you having to wait two weeks made me sad for you - is there any way you can move your appointment up or find out if they can get you cancellations in? Your work schedule might not allow it - but the mental pain of waiting is really hard and hopefully they will be able to get you in. Thinking of you! Sorry for being anonymous, I don't really blog anymore.


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