Be Still, My Soul

Be Still, my soul: the Lord is on thy side.

Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain;

Leave to thy God to order and provide;

In every change He faithful will remain.

Be still, my soul: thy best, thy heavenly Friend

Thro' thorny ways leads to a joyful end.

Be still, my soul: thy God doth undertake.

To guide the future as He has the past.  

Thy hope, thy confidence let nothing shake;

All now mysterious shall be bright at last.

Be still, my soul: the waves and winds still know

His voice who ruled them while He dwelt below.

Be still, my soul: the hour is hastening on

When we shall be forever with the Lord,

When disappointment, grief, and fear are gone,

Sorrow forgot, love's purest joys restored.

Be still, my soul: when change and tears are past,

All safe and blessed we shall me at last. 

Neglectful blogger

I just realized it's been almost a month since my last post. Umm, what is happening to me?  My blog used to be my life.  I have always enjoyed updating my blog, but lately...not so much. Quite a bit has happened in the last month, so let me tell you about it all!

• I had a doctors appointment with a new gyno.  Great things are on the horizon.  I think I finally found a doctor that is perfect for me.  Just a quick rundown...After a consultation with the doctor, she has agreed to try 3 cycles of IUI.  THIS is a BIG deal, folks.  NO ONE has agreed to even consider trying IUI.  All of my options before were strictly IVF and nothing else.  So, for a doctor to listen to me and be willing to at least TRY (even if it doesn't work!), is a HUGE deal.  In the meantime, I'm still on Provera (and she's hitting my emotions with a vengeance!), and I'm on Metformin again (this time I'm trying the extended release because last time I was on the regular kind, and my body hated me!!!)  I'm working to loose 10% of my weight and then it's IUI cycle #1 for us.  I will update occasionally on the weight loss, but hopefully the metformin will help me loose weight.  The doctor said that with the Metformin and 30 minutes of exercise a day, she doesn't see why I couldn't be back in three months to start IUI #1! So, we'll see! Also, one cycle for IUI will only cost $500-$600 where IVF was $11,700.  Uh, can you say BIIIIG difference?!?! :-)
• Just two days after my appointment with the new gyno, Luke and I "celebrated" our 2 year TTC anniversary.  We released sky lanterns in honor of our miscarriages, and let go all of the hurt and pain we've had over the last two years.  What an experience that was. 

• I got a "real" job (as my husband would say).  I am a Classroom Aide at one of our local Head Start programs.  I work one-on-one with a child.  I'm basically his shadow throughout the day.  Since I'm now working at Head Start, that means that I had to give up my in-home daycare *insert lots of tears.* Giving up my daycare broke my heart, but we needed the money, and I think it's good for me to be around other adults AND get my little kid fix all at the same time.  Plus, I've only been at Head Start for 4 days, and I already have two new prospective Scentsy customers. Score!
• I attended my first Scentsy Convention at the end of July!  By far, it was one of the best experiences of my life!  I am SUPER excited about this next year of business with Scentsy and cannot wait to work hard and watch my business expand. Here is my Convention "buddy," Mollie! She kept me company on the long flights and lonely nights.

I'm not sure when I'll be able to update again.  With this new job, I am at work by 7 and am there until 3 or later.  I've been so exhausted that I go to bed by 8:30 (yes, I'm an old woman!) and then I start my day all over the next morning.  But, I will try to update more than once a month, for sure.

I hope all of you and your families are well.  I miss reading your updates and getting your comments.

Blessings to you all,
Alicia Marie